back to a normal life....

finally finished it and posted it to lancaster.....lack of sleep, stress and living with laptop 24 hours have really turned me into z zombie...realised it the other day with the intensity of dark cicles around the eyes...people around me were really suffering my bad mood swings....anyway all well that ends well!!...

I was not at all confident about the whole things till 3 days back...but after 2-3 rounds of editing and rewriting,it reached to a level of 'satisfactory'...I am not too worried about the end results cos I think this is the best I can do for an accademic piece of work...atleast when I was waiting for my turn in the post office,mind was quite relaxed...now lets see what my mentor think about it:)....

dissertation..driving me bonkers!!

aaaaaaaah....im just counting days to get rid of this report......mentally really testing ur limits...

im not able to concentrate well and I really dunno where my report is really heading to even after 10,000 words...............aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!**£$£$***.......

chalo,lemme get back to work!!!

staying n touch....

by my title wat i meant was about the online communities-facebook,tweeter and orkut...now im not planning to write the greatness of online and an essay abt it(even if my MBA has made me like that...writing 1500 word about anythng under the sun,using google!!)....nowadays morning when i get up,even before i have my cup of tea,first thing I do is check gmail,then straight to facebook and orkut...more and more moving to facebook,reason being more activity is happening there due to the options available....i was asking myself what draws me more and more towards it,especially i never used to like facebook in the beginning....

truth is that facebook really provide me an option to express myself and communicate with like minded people..
I see a movie,i would like to tell others how it was,facebook provides me an option...
I see an interesting link,I want to tell to others,facebook is there for me...
I want to tell my friends about what i felt about something, facebook status helps me...

I dunno getting adicted to facebook is good or not,but one thing is for sure,u always feel like, u r connected with everyone all the time!!...

sunday morning...

for the fiz time I am thinking wat to write..normally itz the other way round when it comes to blogging...strong urge to write about something make me open my webpage...this time it is the other way round...

now this is something which I have always thought and never got an answer...what would have been my right profession??...what was that I should have done differently....something which I have realised in the past 5-6 years is that-those people are so lucky,who could carve a career out of their passion/interests/hobbies...painters,dancers,sportsmen all come in that category....someone who realised in a youngage itself where their interests lie and developed the talent in that and made a career out of it....when i was small(as in during school years),I never realised the importance of that,partly because I did my schooling in a place where fulfillment of 10 years of education was considered as getting a rank in 10th standard..at that time,finishing 10th was the only thing in mind(partly because of the strong desire to get out of the school),then college,then like everyone else engineering....understood i was totally in the wrong path for the first time-during the 2nd year in college,when I realised I really dun have any interest in electronics!!!-remember, this was during my 2nd year of Electronics & Instrumentation engineering!!!....I knew I was at a stage where I ddn have too many options but to continue..I never had the guts to do something different at that time....but honestly that was a time when I asked myself for the fiz time what I wanted out of my life...what dd I miss realising about me....surprisingly the answers came out clearly and quite fast...my ideal career was either as a professional classical dancer or a hotel management student or a fashion designer...these were all options which I failed to consider due to the env I was brought up where everything ended and started for an eng degree....I knew that I would have done wonders in all 3 professions cos my passion really lies there...anyway it was too late...
the second biggest mistake I dd in my life was, or i still dunno whether I had another choice also,was taking up my job in Infosys....joining a company which considered every other person as a headcount....in a way I am grateful also,cos that was the phase which really tested my limits,and I realised I need to do something at this point to save myself and my career and decided to go for an MBA....why a foreign MBA??...many asked me and I was quite clear in that decision- I was looking for an experience and not just an MBA.....had to convince my parents how imp this decision was for me...

now when I look back,that was one decision for which I will always be proud of myself, a decision which really changed my life and me as a person...:)...

dunno wat to write...

for the past 1 week,at many points I wanted to blog on lot of thoughts...but today when i got sometime and when internet is also there, mind is blank...partly is because of the things going around which is heavily pulling me down...especially kuttuz accident....times when you realise the flip side of being away from home...he went thru major pain today morning while dressing the wound but handlded it quite well...not writing too much about it as my eyes are already full...im still not able to handle things like this well when it happens to kuttu,amma or achan....anyway he will recover soon...my prayers r always thr for him....mz u kuttu:)...
in work side,things are ending in a good note,yzday for the fiz time I felt my efforts for the past 2 months are paying off...the presentation to director board is on friday...im feeling quite confident after yzdayz presentation with Ben....this 2 monthz really changed me as a person...I was very low in confidence when I started off, as I really doubted whether I can pull off this big project all by myself...I really wished I was working with a partner so that I can share the load...but at the same time I knew that,if I completed it well,this will give me the confidence to kick start my marketing career...tht is what is happening now...I learnt more about marketing than I learnt in the last 1 year in my MBA...more than just making a Marketing plan,learnt the path of Market Research and I have to say that whatever has been taught by Gerry Johnson has changed my line of thought,which helped me immensely in the past 2 months...Another fact is that,I have become quite interested in doing indepedent marketing consulting as I find that path quite challenging and quite enriching...the immediate benefit is working in multiple domains which you may not get while working in a single companny,be it any MNC...another is the freedom and flexibility which I have in my job...anyway I am quite confident that marketing/branding is where I belong to and finally my career is taking off:)...