confused!!!

itz been a looooooooong time since i visited this page..........
still dunno why i stopped blogging juz like that when there was lot to pen down,anyways better late than never!!....
winter has started here and its horrible,temp z hovering around 3-4 degree and feel like staying inside flat most of the time....
sat went to city to see fireworks and had a good time with all.....
there are times when you try to ask yourself,what is going wrong and you simply dun get an answer!!honestly that is one of the most miserable things which can happen to you....i dunno whether itz the pressure of this course or something else,but then me going through that phase....i think the weather here is also contributing to it...3/4 th of the day is so dull here and there are times when u wun see sunshine for more than 5 mnts..z t sumthng called winter syndrome????..maybe!!..u communicate more with god during that time as u feel he is the only one who has some idea of wat is happening with u...enf of my crazy thoughts:)..to an extent im missing a good weekend also,as the weekends put more stress on you than anything else to study.....all part and parcel of this 1 year MBA......at the same time,i relly like most of my subjects,especially marketing and finance....something which i always look forward to z the case study discussions,i learn more from that classes than any other sessions....got some good books in marketing and the only issue is that im nt getting much time to go through that..anyways joining gym tomorrow as i always found it as a good stressbuster...if possible want to join the dance class also..thz z wat z happening around me.......now heading to kitchen as itz dinner time..beef should be defrosted by now:)....

Lost and Found....

An eventful day started with a bad weather....as usual at 8.45 i still had to take a bath....last minute rushes,filled my flask,packed laptop,cooked maggi and was out of the flat at 8.55...double checked whether i had locked my room and got out of the flat and as usual kept my key in the pocket.....as usual was running and weather was just horrible!!!..it was damn windy and the whole place looked quite spooky with no sun:(..reached the management school well before the lecture started and realised tht there was no need to panic...settled n second row and after sometime Soad occupied my left seat......classes got over and i wanted to go to my room and then go to bank...when i was abt to leave the school i realised sumthng,my key was nt there n my pocket!!!.....came back to the lecture room,searched my desk thoroughly,then striked that maybe i had left it in the keyhole of the room itself(now dun raise ur eyebrows,i do all tht crazy thngs n the laz minute panic) or maybe in the kitchen after taking the flask....since naja was there,i could enter the flat and since i was pretty confident that it would be in the flat itself....but got a shock when i reached the flat- it was not there!!...rushed to the potters lodge,informed them as i had to get into my room and start with the painful process of reporting the lost key:(...he came along with me and opened the room for me and asked me to come after sometime and fill the missing key form and get the spare key...said they can wait for another 1 week max,and asked me to find out the key by then or else get ready to pay 30 pounds!!!... !!!....suddenly it striked my mind about finding a key infront of my desk during class time and soad keeping it inside...maybe it cud be my key(that was my last hope!!)..found jeet online and asked to check with Soad whether she has got an extra key with her...was just praying hard to get an Yes from her,but she said NO!!..just dropped a mail to the entire class,informing them abt it,as now the only explanation where my key went was on the way to the school....tried to get out of my head the whole thing as i had a class at 2...even when i was n the class i was telling myself not to be sad about the 30 pounds and to learn to be more careful from now onwards!!..was n the class and after half an hour,vaishali pinged me and said there is an urgent matter..ddn see tht message for somtime and when i asked her what it was -" soad has yr key".....now that was like music to my ears and i did not feel anythng else other than-i saved my 30 pounds!!....witin half an hour got a mail from sanjay describing the series of events which happened outside his flat-soad trying to open her flat with my key(not realising it:))...allz well that ends well,when everythng was over i relly had a good laugh and it compensated for the 1 hour tension i went thru:)

another 1 day weekend...

we ddn have class today,but had a mandatory team building activity called lancaster trail.....idea was to make us familiar with lancaster city and along with it gain some points.....at the end of the day i got faimiliar with some of the streets here-kingston street,market street,thunderham street,brock street...know how to go to lancaster castle,pound shop(already found one near wilkinson,thz z the second),grand theatre.....it was fun,especially the lunch session,we all had it from bombay balti-one of the best indian meals i had after coming here,was relly yummy and affordable!!!......anyway this time we ended last n the game,but no worries,we will fight back with the next event-clougha trail:).....

another thing is that im getting used to this place.....i felt tht when i walked alone to the ATM today.....sometimes i like walking alone,as it relly makes me think about a lot of things and unwinds me a lot........maybe that is when i felt i should really enjoy my each and every moment here(especially since 3-4 days i was madly behind my studies!!!)....live life for the moment so that you don't have to repent later when you look back:).....my room and my flat is my world...seeing abz and naja n the flat makes me relly feel like im home...we 3 cook together- technically speaking me and naja cooks and abz do the cleaning part..most of the time he wun have much dishes to clean also,so we rightly call him the maharaja of the flat:P....

Hofstede!!!

there are times when u end up cursing persons whom u dun even know and will never know!!!one such person for me z hofstede...a great historian who wrote some great thesis on cultural diversity(i hate tht word),which made me sit till 2 yesterday analysing it,and this was all i thought...funniest thing was reading the status n gtalk of my classmates who were frustrated to the core about this essay:)...anyway getting used to the MBA assignment part.....the first essay of this year is done.......1500 words essay....waiting for tomm....friday,weekend...damn tired...juz now celebrated simrunz bday....took me back to my sweet old mlore days when we used to celebrate everyonez bday...juz miss those days...i am relly relly missing my doggie:(....i shud have taken it with me,missing it so much......chalo,lemme hit the bed,have to get up and read accouting notes n the morning...

Reading,Pre reading,assignments:(

it has started......pre reading,case studies and assignments....today was the first case study class and it was really interesting.....have to read 2 chapters of OM......finished one,doing the second......today we had a good session on self marketing by bill fraust.....afternoon general sessions ended at 3 and after that half the class was free....having some free time felt like a luxury today:).....
sometimes feel that life is moving really fast after coming here.....just a bit too fast....i am not even able to keep track of the things back home...sometimes miss kuttu very badly:(....room z again n a major mess,need to clean it,i still cant figure out how i end up mezzng up the whole place every 2 days....need to finish the OM reading....chalo,gdnte

highlight of the week-eskdale

one gruelling week is starting..induction is over,i still dun understand why they call it induction week,when rit from the fiz day actual MBA program started with workshops and sessions!!.....major highlight of the week was definitely ESKDALE and we winning the cup:)...recovered from the hangover(exactly speaking-bodypain!!) of that trip only before 2 days.......submitted the first assignment of the MBA before somtime......need to take phone conxn this week...tomorrow going to Asda for our biweekly shopping....sat wen2 city and bought some stationery and boots......

There is already a major change happening with me.....u tend to think at the end of the day about each and everything u do and spend more time in understanding urself...the feedback session was just too good in realising our flip side....everyone has started a conscious effort to realise onez weaknessness and take steps to correct it.....for the past 1 week,almost all the sessions were directed in only one direction-to help you to understand yourself better:)......

2nd day of coverdale...

team activities continued today also........we tried our best to implement all the feedbacks received on first day........on the whole learning was good........when the sessions are interesting u wunt even know when it bcums evening....
situation in flat was nt that good.............the chinese roomies were having some party and the whole place was stinking like anythng.......we intially decided to use the kitchen n the ground floor flat but finally ended up heating all the stuff and eating n abz room(yah,u guessed it rit,my room was n such a mess that noone ddn even ask me abt dining there).......washed some of my clothes today and cleaned my room-hope it remains like that for another 1 week,im fedup of cleaning it again and again..........
tommorow going for the Eskdale trip......coach will leave at evening 5 and classes are there till 4.30....have to pack the things today itself......anyway as usual i have kept it for tom morning!!...........

Coverdale,Lasagne and Apple Tart:)

The above given thngs are the highlights of the day.........never thought there would be class the very first sunday after coming here:(.........but have to say that,this was one of the best sessions of this one week,was good learning not only for me but for each and everyone in the group.......the name COVERDALE was a mystery for everyone,we even thought that just like eskdale(tht z the attraction of thz week-we r going for a camp thz week) itz an outdoor activity.........coverdale is the name of the group who handle this training program.........

today evening James mom made Lasagne and Apple tart for everyone........it was just amazing,never thought lasagne tastes this gud!!!!!......same with apple tart......today went for a good long walk along the cycle path.......it was nice........have some work to be done today before i sleep.....

1st week came to an end

yah,if you are thinking there is a sunday more to go for a weekend,u r wrong,this week we have juz 1 day off........the way it is going,itz clear that the year ahead is going to be really really tough.......it was supposed to be an induction week and the way it went was like..dun have words to say,was tht tight........nex week we have the outward bound trip and i really hope it will be a good break........havent yet started with the internship thing,have to start on that asap....still feeling quite a bit lonely,hope will get used to that feeling:)........mindful manager started last day and most of the things were going above the head,somewhere after the lunch i felt it was all making sense but again lost grip.......it is supposed to be like that as it was Peterz(he took the class)7 years research,phew!!!....i think almost the entire class hated one word after that session-commitment,none of us ever thought that word has another meaning!!(if u r wundering wat it is,u need to sit n Peter Lawneyz session;))....the fiz session by sara about presentation skills was just amazing,it z going to be helpful......
somtimes i feel it has been years since i left tvm,i cant beleive its just been a week since i left that place.....dunno wat to say,but i relly miss everything.....everything i had n my life.......

1st blog from UK

it has started......a course which i have been waiting for so long,maybe since 1 years......but if i ask myself if im 100% happy,i still dunno,relly relly confused......maybe itz abt the pressure about the job hunt which is already in my head......this is the case with most of the ones n my class.......another thing cud be the feeling of being relly away from everyone.....still relly relly homesick......ddn feel tht till i reached this place........maybe the excitement about coming here kind of overshadowed everything........this place is relly beautiful.......more than wat i thought about it........would love to go for a lonnnnng walk in the city with sumone..........itz a very romatic city also,i can easily say that........today felt a bit happy as i got my laptop.........talked with amma and achan for a long time..need to log off as tomorrow is a hectic day........today was a bit relaxed.....had a relly interesting photo session;)........tomm got a party n the evening with we providing the desserts and entertainement...we r making rice pudding forms n 3 diff forms-indian,lebanese and danish........anyway all now tastes the same now:(....

27th says-here i come!!!

Exactly 7 days to go!!!.......
this 1 week was so hectic(hectic z nt the rit word,was worse than that:()........got my chest xray yesterday.....today have to visit doc for the medicines,planning to take some 2-3 course of antibiotics incase my worst fear come true,hope it dozn happen.......got the outward bound plan details which is happening on 7th and 8th as part of induction week,looks like lot of activites are planned that week....
nowadays without me realising it itself,im relly frustrated,now whatz the exact reason,even i dunno.....the only time when u really feel helpless in your life z when you cant find the issue troubling you and you are disturbed about it through out the day....as most of my frndz point out it could be about the feeling that you are suddenly exposed like that to the world without any shelters and shades...this is something even i realised recently,throughout in my life there were a set of people who were there with me,especially from an age of 16-25......even if i tackled my issues mostly by myself,they being just there with me was a morale booster for me.......maybe when i came to tvm last year,the kind of unrest i felt within myself,even if i cudn find the reason then,could be attributed this same issue itself.........btu there also i got 2 bubbly gals as frndz very soon itself:).......as i always say,god has always been kind to me when it comes to frndship when i was 15 onwards,always i was surrounded with some really good friends and some of them are really frndshipz for a lifetime....maybe he was compensating me for whatever i missed out till then:)...thatz when i really realised a golden fact also- true frndz r the ones who will be just there when u need them,they may not send u daily hi mails,but when u need them ,they will be there,no matter however busy they are.........
so this may be a real test for me,even if i have adjusted to all sort of situations in my life,sumwhere feel this would be a different experience in my life,waiting for it:).....

Onam,pre departure and Lancaster

Even if the title gives 3 current topics in my life,im planning to write just about onam.......mainly its the urge to write down sumthing rather than onam spirit, made me open this window now.......sometimes i really wish,i have a book or a laptop always near me,so that whenever im in that mood i can transfer it all to something else.......yesterday was one of those days when i really wanted to blog,but sadly at that time got busy with something else.........
When i came to tvm on June 14th,Sep was somewhere down the lane.......3 months,long way to go!!.......2-3 dates which were important for me in the coming 3 months were-aug18th-blore trip,aug 23rd-athiz marriage,sep 13th-onam.......this was another way of keeping track of the D date-Sep 27th.......now im on tht laaaaaaast date in my list-Sep 13th......hardly 2 weeks for me to leave...uff!!......
Onam is always shuttling between tvm and alleppey for me,this time i made it very clear tht we will go to allepey before that and have a very quiet onam n tvm.......sumtimes i relly wonder how can we claim that we celebrate onam!!.......atleast during school and college days(and in infy also)onam means-traditional day,onam sadhya and pookalam.....maybe this is the fiz onam in my life where all 3 factors were missing.....onam this year has only one event to look forward to and that is the sadhya today(and there to except for peeling some onions,i havent contributed anythng!!!)......sumtimes i relly wonder whether amma dun wan2 watch the channel programes and all(actually tv channels r the ones which relly celebrate onam!!).....asked tht to amma today and she had only 1 reply-wats the use in buyng sadhya from outside,where z the spirit of onam there.....relly wonder whether i will be able to cook one proper sadhya for my family........the traditional kerala veg dishes are still a nightmare for me:(.........
even if we do not celebrate onam the way it should be,i really get into that festival spirit every year during onam time.........u juz have to go to the city to get into that onam fever-city fully lit with lights,stage shows happening all over........that is the only time in a year when u can see my city like that.........
one of the other major attraction of onam is the "onamkodi"-or in other words-new dress which elders get u for onam......during school days,strictly the dress shopping of an year used to happen on onam time-so it was really a time of the year, me and my brother used to look forward to....wearing that new dress for onam celebrations to school and to temple on thiruvonam day was really a celebration for me.......but now things have changed drastically,since i shop the entire year(my mlore frnds will vouch for tht:D) onamkodi has lost its charm......but still i relly cherish that one new skirt or a top which my dad buys for me:).......
amma needs me in kitchen,i think its high time i help her with something:).......bye

Mangalore...

its 8.40 am,i am supposed to get ready to go to office,but all of a sudden felt like writing this blog.......maybe its the climate which made me do tht-rainy season has started here.......this is the time mlore looks at its best,mornings when u get up you doubt whether you are in a hillstation or something,will be that cold and breezy.........coming back to the topic,mangalore.......place where i spent 2.5 years of my life.......place with which i have more attachment than tvm.....what is so special about here?.......maybe itz the small city culture,maybe itz the time i had with my friends..or maybe its the beaches......whatever it is i know that this place will always have a very special place in my heart.......thr r lot of beautiful moments which Mlore has gifted me..........always feel that i belong here,something which i have never felt to this extent about tvm, even after being there for 20 years.......
still remember clearly that day-march13th 2005 night,when we said goodbye to Mysore and started our journey to Mangalore.....nobody was happy with the posting,especially gals..........i was relieved that my best buddy was there with me.........reached here at morning 4,except for me and another gal(we had to move to infy guest house) rest all checked in n poonja international........had a mjor shock when i saw infy here,was expecting something near to mysore campus,and all we got to see was one huge building,no lawn nuthng:(..........intial 1 month was difficult as we all were so used to the luxury of infy hostels........ac,maid to clean the room,5 star life n campus......everthing changed overnight.........
dunno when i got used to this place........weekends n bharath mall,sunday evenings in panambur and thaneer bhavi with frnds (thtz the 2 most famous beaches here),hao ming,night drive to mulky bridge with the gang,weekend trips........mlore gave me the college life which i had always wished for........now itz time to say bye to everything.........but memories are there to stay!!

finally went thr....

yah..finally i wen2 St Maryz island ...ask anyone 2 things mlore z famous about abt and the answer comes n a jiffy-hao hao and st maryz island(the fiz z one of the oldest chinese rest: n south india).... wanted to go to st marys island since the time i stepped n mlore but sumhow it ddn work out and had to leave mlore laz year without visitng it:(.......but then this time i ddn wan2 miss it.....and finally the trip happened......
its nt exactly in mlore.......u have to travel 1 hour from mlore towards uduppi to reach malpe.....if u reach thr around noon,u can have lunch from paradise island...fiz reach the port from where u have to take boat service to reach the island......boat service is there every 1 hour.....we reached there around 2.....the boat was relly crowded and we managed to find a place to sit.......for all gals out there reading this-do not forget to take a good sunscreen lotion,itz relly sunny there:).......if possible and if u dun mind ppl staring at u-take an umbrella also:):).......(yes ,u guessed rit-i took both)....
u have to switch the boats when u r abt to reach the island.....dunno why, in the second boat i felt a bit dizzy cos the boat was swaying a lot and diesel smell was also too much.........but thankfully i had to stay thr n the second boat only for 5 mnts.....
the fiz view was juz awesome.......i cant explain it n words,its tht pretty!!!........the water is so green and cool and the island is surrounded by rocks.......i read sumwhere tht the island was formed out of a volcanic erruption........iv tried the bez to capture the scenic beauty with my 2 MP motoming.....check out my orkut for tht!!......
and hey one more thing u v to bring with u drinking water.....thr r nt much shops thr.....we had juz one hour to explore as the final boat was at 4.15:(......lot of ppl were having a good time playing in water as the water is relly clear and not too deep also....after walking around the island enjoying the place,at around 4.10,we had to head back where we started, as the boat was waiting for us.....it was a short trip making me want to go there again.....and who knows i may go there again before i leave mlore:).......

NUS Interview

ok,let me start from the beginning.....
the D Day was Jan 21st.......

got the much awaited call from adcom around 2 pm,thr were 2 ppl in the panel.......

following were the questions....

1) describe about career progression in Infy?
2)a question about one major project(it was a follow up to my previous question response)
3)question about my long term plan
4) response for a situation (based on long term plan)
5)response for a situation(based on wat i have written in my essay)
6) why NUS?
7) which all schools i applied?
8) what makes NUS diff from those schools?
9) define success
10) another question based on my response for the above question

i dunt remember all questions,thr was some 2-3 more....

lasted for around 32 minutes

personally i felt i dd well,but now everything is in their hands......

just wishing for the best......

hope this post will be helpful for someone.......

She said Goodbye.......

Yah,she said goodbye.......Somi......left before some time from my place.....came to meet my folks ........
My..wat shud i write....best frnd.......close frnd.....maybe sumthnng beyond tht.....thts wat she is for me......
she is leaving to california on Friday,for minimum 1 year,as of now........never thought she will say goodbye before me..........cos this onsite tripwas so sudden,her visa stamping itself got over last week......now 2 more days to go.......
when she left from my place my heart was full,still i ddn show anything.....can c her 2 more days,afer tht dunno when,as i will be leaving this place for my studies within the next 5 months.......
when i came back to my room my mind travelled back,sumwhere before 5 years,the day when i got transferred from Ece class to AE.......
i just searched for gai(thts the 3rd one in the threesome gang),saw her sitting with another gal,now first shot itself i knew this gal was there with us in school,from school itself i used to admire her nails,yah,she had long nails ,well trimmed and polished,i think everyone in school used to envy her for her nails,she also had a good figure,very tall, typical model features........tht was somi for me,till that moment....never even in my wildest dreams thought she will become someone who is so close to my heart.......
there started tht frndship ,we 3 were together all the time,shared tht 4 years of our life together.......latenight studies,day dreaming during lectures,college tours.......me and gai ended up together in Infy,somi reached till the intvw........i still remember the shock we had when we heard tht Somi was not there in the selected list,cos we thought we cud be again together.......
But God never makes mistakes,a good career was waiting for her in USTRI.......she rose to a team lead position fast and made a good impact in the company and now she is leaving onsite......
We were there for each other during lots of ups and downs in the past 1 year.......she is one person who understands me so well,we can talk to each other without any fear,without any inhibition,may be we became tht close after we left the college.......
Anyway whereever u r ,u will always be thr deep inside chomi( as i call her),my prayers are always thr with u and more than anything me and gai will miss u.........

Story behind the title........

basically a saggii,who dreams a lot.........
u must be wundering why this title.......

before 1 .5 year started the great marthon behind a MBA seat.......i think its about to reach the finishing lap.........
the preparation started last May for GMAT,wrote GMAT this october and got 690,intially felt sad since i expected above 700,but now understood GMAT is just a part of the whole package......

wrote TOEFL in Sep,got 113/120,for all those ppl who r planning to write TOEFL,plz dunt spend sleepless nights for tht, it will be a cakewalk for u,if you can speak English fluently.........

till then i considered writing GMAT was the toughest part of the whole journey,but i was entirely wrong,the main game starts only after that......

Essays,Transcripts,Recommendation Letters,application fee,deadlines.......its been 4 months since it all started.........

Have applied to 6-7 schools,by now.......UCLA and judge-got rejected..........

NUS intervew is over....... waiting for the result.......it was a surprise considering people who have applied before me r still waiting to hear from adcom.......

thought of wrting this much itself to releive a bit from tension,as NUS results will be known anytime in the coming 2 weeks......