27th says-here i come!!!

Exactly 7 days to go!!!.......
this 1 week was so hectic(hectic z nt the rit word,was worse than that:()........got my chest xray yesterday.....today have to visit doc for the medicines,planning to take some 2-3 course of antibiotics incase my worst fear come true,hope it dozn happen.......got the outward bound plan details which is happening on 7th and 8th as part of induction week,looks like lot of activites are planned that week....
nowadays without me realising it itself,im relly frustrated,now whatz the exact reason,even i dunno.....the only time when u really feel helpless in your life z when you cant find the issue troubling you and you are disturbed about it through out the day....as most of my frndz point out it could be about the feeling that you are suddenly exposed like that to the world without any shelters and shades...this is something even i realised recently,throughout in my life there were a set of people who were there with me,especially from an age of 16-25......even if i tackled my issues mostly by myself,they being just there with me was a morale booster for me.......maybe when i came to tvm last year,the kind of unrest i felt within myself,even if i cudn find the reason then,could be attributed this same issue itself.........btu there also i got 2 bubbly gals as frndz very soon itself:).......as i always say,god has always been kind to me when it comes to frndship when i was 15 onwards,always i was surrounded with some really good friends and some of them are really frndshipz for a lifetime....maybe he was compensating me for whatever i missed out till then:)...thatz when i really realised a golden fact also- true frndz r the ones who will be just there when u need them,they may not send u daily hi mails,but when u need them ,they will be there,no matter however busy they are.........
so this may be a real test for me,even if i have adjusted to all sort of situations in my life,sumwhere feel this would be a different experience in my life,waiting for it:).....

Onam,pre departure and Lancaster

Even if the title gives 3 current topics in my life,im planning to write just about onam.......mainly its the urge to write down sumthing rather than onam spirit, made me open this window now.......sometimes i really wish,i have a book or a laptop always near me,so that whenever im in that mood i can transfer it all to something else.......yesterday was one of those days when i really wanted to blog,but sadly at that time got busy with something else.........
When i came to tvm on June 14th,Sep was somewhere down the lane.......3 months,long way to go!!.......2-3 dates which were important for me in the coming 3 months were-aug18th-blore trip,aug 23rd-athiz marriage,sep 13th-onam.......this was another way of keeping track of the D date-Sep 27th.......now im on tht laaaaaaast date in my list-Sep 13th......hardly 2 weeks for me to leave...uff!!......
Onam is always shuttling between tvm and alleppey for me,this time i made it very clear tht we will go to allepey before that and have a very quiet onam n tvm.......sumtimes i relly wonder how can we claim that we celebrate onam!!.......atleast during school and college days(and in infy also)onam means-traditional day,onam sadhya and pookalam.....maybe this is the fiz onam in my life where all 3 factors were missing.....onam this year has only one event to look forward to and that is the sadhya today(and there to except for peeling some onions,i havent contributed anythng!!!)......sumtimes i relly wonder whether amma dun wan2 watch the channel programes and all(actually tv channels r the ones which relly celebrate onam!!).....asked tht to amma today and she had only 1 reply-wats the use in buyng sadhya from outside,where z the spirit of onam there.....relly wonder whether i will be able to cook one proper sadhya for my family........the traditional kerala veg dishes are still a nightmare for me:(.........
even if we do not celebrate onam the way it should be,i really get into that festival spirit every year during onam time.........u juz have to go to the city to get into that onam fever-city fully lit with lights,stage shows happening all over........that is the only time in a year when u can see my city like that.........
one of the other major attraction of onam is the "onamkodi"-or in other words-new dress which elders get u for onam......during school days,strictly the dress shopping of an year used to happen on onam time-so it was really a time of the year, me and my brother used to look forward to....wearing that new dress for onam celebrations to school and to temple on thiruvonam day was really a celebration for me.......but now things have changed drastically,since i shop the entire year(my mlore frnds will vouch for tht:D) onamkodi has lost its charm......but still i relly cherish that one new skirt or a top which my dad buys for me:).......
amma needs me in kitchen,i think its high time i help her with something:).......bye